Rambles

 My tummy hurts. Fml.

I have been drowning myself with work and housekeeping. But my house is a mess because I am currently a mess. Of course, I found other stuff to drown myself in like watching almost all videos of HoneyJube on Youtube. Apparently Daiso’s and Ikea’s stuff are all the craze in my head right now. I wish I can go now and buy everything so my house can be ultra organized. 

I tried to find some peace in all this mess. What are the chances right. 

I wish everyone can speak as freely and honestly as they can. So that I won’t have to waste my time. I have no self-control these days. Is it anger or is it sadness? I have no idea. 

Is it me then. Am I the problem. Am I so unlikable, unlovable that people just find ways to fuck me over. 

I read Nozoki Ana. What started out as a peeping fetish turns out the story actually went somewhere. I want what they have. I’m glad I read it till the end. Don’t read it now though, it’s fasting season and you don’t want unfiltered boobs during the day. 

This has been all over the place kind of post. But this is pretty much how my headspace is at most times. I need to sleep. Maybe it will be a bit quieter since my tummy still hurts. It always remind me of a scene where two people hated each other but one fell sick due to cramps and the other still came through and spent all night rubbing her tummy to make it go away. I don’t remember which kdrama was it but I remember how touched I was watching that scene. Such warmth. Korean ajummas be hitting it different.