Monday, 26 December 2016



How are you? I'm fine. If anyone's wondering. 

I'm supposed to be studying for tomorrow's (a few more hours to be honest) exam but I'm just not in the mood. I can't wait for all of this to be over. 

I am lost. I can't go into details what I meant by lost. To describe my feelings and where I am right now, that's the word, lost. I've come so far to give up right now but I just lost all my motivation and determination along the way. Only a few weeks left to finish this semester. That will mark the end of my degree. 

I don't feel anything. Towards everything. I no longer love the person I loved before. I no longer feel passionate about the things I'm usually passionate about. I feel nothing. 

I do think I deserved it though. This emptiness that resonates deep in my soul. 

Pray for me. Pray that this emptiness will soon fade away and filled with something much more beautiful things instead of endless agony and pain from past failures.

I hope this emptiness somehow help me in my presentation next week. I don't need my anxiety making a comeback. -_- 



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